It’s the unwavering emotional peace and mental stability that keeps me here, and every time i wonder if its better on the outside and wander, i get overwhelmed and return back to this ‘subterranean solid ground’…

There’s a world where things don’t happen spontaneously, and everything is measured. You carve out your comfort to fit, there’s a pattern to events and its predictable. No risks, not much reward too though but its balanced and there’s evidence for your calculation, and planning is possible.The world above is simply too much, too attractive and emotions are heightened.    

Everything is by chance, I’ve tried it many times before and even recently, but the sun burns too brightly and the winds ruffle my calm. Every time i rise above i float and struggle to find firm ground and i realize that i’m not well suited. 

Will i find a pattern in this chaos? Shall i see clearly in the foggy world above? or should i accept the weightlessness out there in place of the gravity that pulls me down here?

… Because It is the unfaltering emotional peace  that keeps me here, and every time i wonder if i need to go above, i get overwhelmed and return back to this ‘subterranean solid ground’.